Unlike you, I always wanted kids. I worry constantly that I am not good enough, because like you, my biggest fear is screwing them up.
Somewhere along the way, I came to understand that we all try the best we can, at least most of the time. And somehow, that has to be enough to be getting by on. From repairing the lovvies to encouraging the gardening and curious minds, I am doing what I can. And I know that my boys know that they are loved and I will listen and help if I can.
I do worry that I have passed on traits that may have made it difficult for them, but in doing so I also have the benefit of passing on the stratagies to manage those traits as well. They know Mom is not perfect!
They are totally themselves, and I could not ask for more than that. I do try to understand them and see where they are coming from, so that I may help them manage. (now if I could only get my partner to understand that!)
Besides, I want to live in the world that Harry and Greg see, even if it is not always the one that the rest of the world might perceive. How else will things change, if not for the dreamers?
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rosecarmine
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Date: 2012-05-25 02:56 pm (UTC)Unlike you, I always wanted kids. I worry constantly that I am not good enough, because like you, my biggest fear is screwing them up.
Somewhere along the way, I came to understand that we all try the best we can, at least most of the time. And somehow, that has to be enough to be getting by on. From repairing the lovvies to encouraging the gardening and curious minds, I am doing what I can. And I know that my boys know that they are loved and I will listen and help if I can.
I do worry that I have passed on traits that may have made it difficult for them, but in doing so I also have the benefit of passing on the stratagies to manage those traits as well. They know Mom is not perfect!
They are totally themselves, and I could not ask for more than that. I do try to understand them and see where they are coming from, so that I may help them manage. (now if I could only get my partner to understand that!)
Besides, I want to live in the world that Harry and Greg see, even if it is not always the one that the rest of the world might perceive. How else will things change, if not for the dreamers?